challenges

for the first time giving birth, we get to be discharge after 24 hrs. yeay! so we were thankful to Allah coz i just cant stay longer in the hospital.... however after birth rayyan had to stay in NICU for monitoring of his sugar level. i can only come and see him at times of feeding coz i was placed at different ward than him. got to walk to get to him. hmmm challenge for me... but Alhamdulillah I managed as my after birth pain wasnt so bad.

 

but than after we came home only rayyan jaundice starts to show.. at the first few days, its only mild but after 4 days the nurse asks us to get his blood count for jaundice. so we went to nearby clinic to do so but the dr cant perform it that day.

 

no choice my IZT and mom took rayyan to HA emergency. so than as suspected his jaundice reading was high abt 200 ++ which means he has to be admitted. i came and we had to stay in peds at HA. the room was nice and comfortable. so ALhamdulillah

 

 

so than, the episode started for rayyan as he had to be off his clothes and put under the light ( forgot the name ) and had to only wear this eye cover. yup any mothers seeing a week old baby in such state wouldnt be able to take it.. i am not comfortable seeing him like that. plus my BF are not doing so well. rayyan hardly be able to get milk and this makes it very hard for me as we cant give him formula in a bottle here.

 

so the first day evening was a bit of challenge. i had to give him a formula in a cup. hmmm a week old drinking in a cup...yeay...

pity my baby... so Alhamdulillah Allah did has His great plan for us. I had no sleep that night and rayyan seems to be soo hungry all night long. i had to keep BFing him eventhough my milk hardly came out. he did not want to be put on his bed and i cant get him the lights these way... how can he be cured faster...

i tried and tried and tried with the BF and Alhamdulillah it eventually came out. and rayyan was feeding on and on and he poop which is also good so that the jaundice would come out.

 

So it was with reason why we had to go back warded again after discharged. Allah has made it possible for me to get my BF and if we dont rayyan probably be on formula alone right now.

 

so Allah always has His best plan for us. alhamdulillah.

rapuh-opick

rapuh

the year was 2000

hmm pre midlife crisis... hardly lahhh i'm only in my 30's...
what i'm rambling today.
my mind went back to the year 2000 in August..
i suddenly been thinking of the incident...sudden incident...
i'm wondering how 'it' is now?
yup... i did google around... yup i did find it but ....
ntahlaa... i'm only human....

he's here!

 

 

so, 29052012 my baby was born. at about 11.16 am he sees the world for the first time.

weighing 3.24 kg, healthy and amazing and mostly magical.

the labor was not soo painful. i went through it almost instantly..

 

i was admitted early to HA due to needs for induced labor.. 2 weeks early..coz of my medical condition. i had diabetic during this pregnancy.

 

so, induced only the next day..2 times induced only than it has open about 3 cm and i was sent to the labor room..this was at about 8am.

 

i was with my beloved hubby in the labor room (it is his first time to actually be in the labor room together with me ) the nurse had on Al Quran recital..that was wonderful... we recite Ya Latiff all the way... Insya Allah He make it easy for us...

 

than at about 11am the pain starts getting stronger and i felt i needed to push... and so the pushing started and Alhamdulillah 16 mins later Rayyan came to us...

 

it was magical and i just love the birthing moments of rayyan as well as my dini and zikry too...

 

so brother and sister are sooo happy that rayyan was home with us...

belated, belated, belated birthday

 

huhu my dotter birthday delayed for sooo long....

but she is just wonderful about it...

all the patience and understanding from her...

i love you...

 

 

it was a simple affair but she gotten the cake she wanted. nekma's choc rich moist cake with a ana muslim pics on it.

 

she has always been lovely and understanding... we are not facing the tantrum spill out from her with regards to any matters. Alhamdulillah.

 

Always have patience and we have great tolerance with each other.

 

Any how ibu pray to Allah kakak will become a solehah, smart and beautiful person inside out. Amin.

 

 

 

school orientation

here was last year's event when both of my kiddo had their school orientation.

izn went to std 1 and izk to pre school.

we were all excited and i'm glad they were very happy to go to school.

they had a good time.

note to u both: ibu and papa pray to Allah for both of you to be able to achieve and experience the best in school and become a better person, Insya Allah.

2011 graduation - pre school

last year punya story... pardon me...

well my darling dotter izn had her graduation from her SKDP pre school. Alhamdulillah..

there were a performance by her and her classmates... See how tall she is....

and than we had our pics taken... hmm someone sure is grumpy....

 

catching up

i'm so happy that i have been able to catch up on my reading a lot during my confinement period.

i normally do the reading while breast feeding for izR so...

i'm also start to actively blog and updated my online shop at stylobooku and my page as well here 

I hope I'll be getting my big break soon...with the business

to recap : my hero birthday

since I was pregnant... i was not being active online....

so here's some updates of past happening here and there

november 2011, we celebrated my hero izk birthday...

there was 2 celebration... we suprise him on the eve of his birthday at home...

than on his  birthday, nekma made a birthday cake for him and we celebrate at nekmas'

fun and colorful

at nekmas'

at home

how does e-learning challenging me...

hmm it already past my 1st semester and done with my final exam.

how was it?

hmmm... a mixture of everything...

life has been a little bit of a challenge for me  but Alhamdulillah.. I came out one piece.

Actually I was on full gear already on the 1st month, tutorials, forums, assignments...

suddenly...

i was given a wonderful surprise...

i'm expecting...

my 3rd baby...

obviously great news as we have been wanting a baby for quite sometime...

Alhamdulillah..

Although my challenges starts right about than,

when I had to do assignment,..

1st trimester of pregnancy...

work...

children...

house chores...

but I think everyone had been wonderful by giving me a lot of space to complete what I had to do...

unfortunately...

I'm in that stage of first trimester as you know...

I'm beyond myself...

not blaming anyone but me.. for not having had to control my own situations

takpelah... thats my challenge but Alhamdulillah what ever the outcome , I had done my level best and hope for the best result...

yang penting I'm happy for Allah blessings and all that He has given us...

perjalanan impian mencapai segulung ijazah

well, i've decided today that i shall be sharing my journey from the very beginning towards completing my bachelor of psychology with honours in OUM ( Open University Malaysia ).

the very earliest processes were:

1. go to oum.edu.my untuk browse through courses offered and suitable. along with the tagline " university for all" there's even a Flexible entry requirements to provide more opportunities for the members of the society to pursue their aspirations;
   so peeps! apalagi di tunggu2......
2. ada berminat? go to osa.oum.edu.my for online registration. it takes up to not more than 15 mins, or 1/2 hour if we "type like turtle" . sangat senang dong!
3. wah... u'll be getting a conditional letter. can print or not. up to u. but please be informed that this is not an offer letter ya!
4. than go to your chosen learning centre or the main campus. for me i went first to the main campus sebab dekat, saje2 nak tgk2 but there i just get to pay the rm 30 process fee and they printed out for me the conditional letter. owh and pesan untuk bawak gambar ukuran passport 3 ( hmm which was odd sebb dalam site tk dek pesan pon...)
5. tapi tk pe no hal. mungkin saya tk perasan. besoknye sebab saya keje semalam, jd tk dpt g pj ( my LC) trus and wt the gambar also..pegi ke pj utk urusan daftar seterusnya. jgn lupa bwk copy certified documents requested.
6. pon..sekejap saja.. isi borang, tampal gambo, sign, bayor min amt yuran and given the modules siap sticker sekali. waduh... macam dapat actual scrol rasanya. sangat bersemangat. harap2 terus jitu hingga ke akhirnya.

gitulah simplenye process nak mendaftar.. balance fee akan dibayar lepas dapat claim dari epf..

owh btw, the docs for epf can only be sent/collected after 1 wk.

and owh after 3 days, we can already log in to our my learning management system.

ape jadik pastu.....?

bersambung..

adios & salam

new challenge. tak yah tunggu new year for a new resolution..

bermulalah detik baru dalam hidup aku.

semuanya agak pantas.

sekelip mata, aku dapat meneruskan niat aku yang dah lama di simpan

ditangguh.

frankly speaking, i did not know that you can take out your epf for study.

( talking about ignorance )

jadiknye sebaik sahaja mengetahui, aku pun dengan pantasnya

mendaftar untuk kursus yang sangat ku dambakan.

well, i am unbelievably excited and looking forward for it will start in october.

definitely gonna be great for my kids too.

orang kata; don't you wished you have done this 5 yrs back?

nope. i think now is the best time.

sebabnya 5 tahun lepas aku sibuk beranak dan ada 2 anak yg baby.

sekarang or shall i say next yr we are all gonna be studying together and

do homework together.

i hope to be able to show the best example to my preciouses.

well ya'all the sky's the limit.

inspire me.

it was a mind blowing deco for me..

all the books on the bookshelf lined up along the walls of this family home are so inspiring.

i'm absolutely inspired.

how about that, your dining experience surrounded by books..

love it to bits..

the big bad wolf sales coming out soon.

can't wait.

my kids first day of school

yeah i know i know its already the middle of the school year.

tapi its ok lah kan coz i prefer to do it now instead..

hehe reminiscing,

hmm yawning lagi adik.... kakak as usual all excited

the 1st assembly

siap ade radio era crew n pak nil :)

she's the tallest in her class...obviously

in the new class room

adik queue

'straight line' into the class room

at his table.... see the face

so watching our kids going to school is just a wonderful experience all parents should not ever missed..both mom and dad.

its a start of a meaningful journey of life that will bring us up to be what we are going to be in the future.

Insya Allah

artistic touche

my mom has always been a creative person. she manage to do nice, pretty things.

her creativity flows through and it is just with her touch that would work out something beautiful.

be it on work, or leisure she just have that touch.

hope i too could turn a rock into gold.

attitudes

" the longer i live, the more i realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. it is more important than the past, the education, the money than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do.

it is more important than appearance, gifted or skill. it will make or break a company..a 'community'... a home. the remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. we cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. we cannot change the inevitable.

the only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. i am convinced that life is 10 % what happens to me and 90% of how i react to it. and so it is with you...we are in charge of our attitudes"

                                      -charles r. swindoll quotes

excerpt from rahsia kaya dan berjaya by ah al-attas & dr azizan osman

2011 kl book fair

the most awaited event every year. KL book fair. it was better this year. not much irritating participants

my babies as always all very excited on this trip

we had fun and bought loads of reading books and exercises.

can't wait for other event this year

precious; our future

last school holiday, we managed to finally have our vacation...last minute plan...

always last minute...

a lot of hurdle..unnecessary foul thoughts...drama...

adults tend to put in their perspectives to what they felt and wants to see only...

but sometimes the main star are our precious, khalifah of the future...

cuti sekolah is all about them...

it is a moment dedicated for them and

a lot of the desicion mainly are focusing on them..

jadi kami ketepikan ego dan ke kurang senang hatian...

(yang sebenarnya hanyalah a waste of valuable time and bisikan syaitan sahaja...)

just to be able to fulfill our future khalifah's social needs...

so as mothers... whose husbands was thoughtful and lovable...we cherished this and willing to put aside anything.... and focus on the little khalifahs enjoying their moments that they deserved the best we as parents can provide...

Alhamdulillah

hero

my sweet sweet baby turned 4 last November, exactly on Hajj . he has blossomed and have become a wonderful2 young man...

so much more sensitives and very polite.

sweet talker and charming.

more talkatives and funny.

his full of surprises and sometimes talks using very mature words.

and very loving tooo.....

1 incidents:

We're in the car and papa went out to buy us char kuew tiow...yummy...

he starts telling on his sister...

"ibu2 kakak ari  ni nakal...

adik tak...

kakak kan kena marah ngan pak su...

ibu: nape kena marah..

kakak tersipu2

dia nak minum air sejuk....pak su taknak bagi....dia nangis...

than...

and papa walking towards the car...

and 

izk said than.." dah...dah...diam sume...papa da sampai...."

jangan cakap lagi nanti papa marah kakak.....

so....after telling...still full of compasion dont want kakak to get scold....

i'm sure gonna miss all this and hopefully you will grow up slowly as ibu dont wanna miss a thing....

love you

i'm all bless

well, i'm happy today and hopefully it will be an all new encounter for me. i've got it with a reason and hope to be more focus. May Allah bless me all the way.

time is an essence. really important to keep my feet on the ground and achive what i want in life without further delay and excuses.

I SHALL HAVE A MOVE ON IT FIRST THING TOMORROW.